My Love!!!

Since the time we got married, my husband, has not remained the same person I fell in love with.

Gone are the days when we would talk openly to eachother. For the 5 years of our courtship, I loved the man who I could talk to about anything. He was my best friend. I could talk to him about my life, my parents, my feelings, my likes & dislikes. He would do the same & we knew eachother inside - out.

However, the day we got married, it all changed.

He does not share all with me & when I do, he doesn't give much response. His mother complaints to him about his & mine behavior, but he tells me just 10% of it all.

Living in the same with in-laws is not easy, and I'm learning it the hard way.

I suffer more, because all has changed for me. The least I expected was for the attitude of my husband (my boyfriend for 5 years before that) to change towards me.

He has always been a person of great patience, calm & composed. But now I often find him screaming at me. over the smallest of issues. He does not open to me about what his parents tell him & keeps all to himself.

He is man who likes to be in the good books of all. Thus, he does not reply to whatever his parents tell him. He seldom justifies himself or me.

I feel like I got a sour deal. I was happily living alone in a good apartment, doing a job. I quit & got married & now I have to live with his parents, who have  problem with literally the way I breath.

I was never close to my parents, but I had him by side, though thick & thin always.

However, I have now lost his support, as he is caught between his parents & me.

All I want now is some peace & to live happily & get a good job. I feel so frustrated & unhappy that I often find myself crying, which was hardly ever the case earlier. I have lost a very good friend & confidant, only to get a husband who loves me a little & keeps to himself.